Wow. I can't believe it's been nearly a year since I felt I would focus on the word trust.
Without a doubt trust has been the consistent theme of my life this year. Little did I know, I would not be the one driving the journey of 2012.
I haven't talked about the incredibly challenging time we have had with growing our family. I'm saving that story for the new year. I haven't talked about the tug that we feel to follow God wholeheartedly, because we don't yet know what that means.
We went to Portland for Anthony's birthday. While we were there, we visited Solid Rock church. Anthony and I were blown away at the number of people our age that made up the congregation. We went to spend time with Anthony's classmate. We didn't go expecting to have a flame lit. We didn't go expecting to have one passage ring through our minds for the next few months. It's funny now to think about the passage Dominic shared that night:
Rejoice in the Lord always. I will say it again: Rejoice!
Let your gentleness be evident to all. The Lord is near.
Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God.
And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus. - Philippians 4:4-8 NIV
This year I discovered worry is the antithesis of trust. Yet trust is what God has been impressing on my heart almost daily. Anthony and I have heard the Philippians passage numerous times since we first heard it in October.
I don't know what another year will look like. I don't know if we'll have a baby or be living in this house. I don't know if I'll be working where I currently work or somewhere completely different. I don't know anything other than I know how to trust the plans of God more today than I did a year ago.
I still worry, but I've been learning how to pray instead of stewing. I've read amazing stories of people Daring Greatly and how God is consistently faithful to provide.
When I picked the word Trust, I thought I would steer how it would influence my life. I had no idea the Holy Spirit was the One who had chosen the word.
Trust has shaped me as I have learned to rely more on God. I've seen His hand gently guiding both mine and Anthony's lives.
As this year comes to a close, I am excited and nervous for the adventures 2013 will bring. We're planning to travel to North Carolina to visit the city of Raleigh. I'm hopeful for personal growth and more dependence on God. I'm looking forward to trusting God instead of myself. Without a doubt, 2013 will include more of this little ray of sunshine:
Linking up with One Word 365 Rearview Mirror update.